I write a small, bi-weekly column for our local Tidbits newspaper, and this week I decided to write about the topic of "greatness" and how elusive the feeling of being successful is. It's something I've been thinking about for a long time.
When I first started my blog, I kept praying that it would turn into something big, something great. I wasn't sure what I wanted it to be, just successful. And then after a few months I had 200 followers! I couldn't believe it. In my mind, I had hit the big time. When I posted about how excited I was, Heather from Dollar Store Crafts said "It won't be long until you have 2,000!". Of course I knew she was just being polite...who could ever have 2,000 followers??
At that time I felt that if I had 2,000 followers that I would be on top of the world. I would feel so important. How could anyone not, after all? But 8,000 followers later, I feel appreciative, but not successful. When I started blogging I would have thought that being in a magazine would feel so incredible, like I was famous! It does feel wonderful, but I certainly don't feel famous. Or any more important or great.
No matter what I do, someone will have done it before. No matter how much traffic my blog gets, someone else will have more. So I started wondering if I would ever really get to that feeling of successfulness. Will I ever feel like I've done something "great"? Will I if I write a book? If I'm on TV? What's it going to take?
None of those things.
I've discovered that blogging can't make me feel important. Nor being "famous" or "successful". Those are all good things, but they don't fulfill a person. They don't make us important. I think what makes us important is being a truly loving person. A goal more lofty (and sometimes more difficult to achieve) than any other I can think of. Practicing humility and serving others, doing small, unimportant things for big and important reasons. That's what makes me feel successful. That's what makes me feel like I've done my best, like I'm really becoming something "great".
I just wanted to put that out there, I guess.
Thanks for putting up with my volcano of words. :o)
Have a "great" weekend! :o)